Give Doubt a ‘Peace’ of God

PC: Britni Conrad

PC: Britni Conrad

Hardly Worthy


I can’t believe this is my last Clocktower article or that I’m going to be graduating in less than three weeks. It’s crazy how fast the time flies. Just about three years ago I had some major doubts regarding whether or not my choice to come to Union was right.

As I reflect on my time here, I think back to the days before starting school. I had all these feelings: excitement and nervousness. I didn’t know what to expect, but everything I imagined was romanticized by how “perfect college was going to be” and that “it was finally happening to me.” I’d made it.

Currently, I’ve just completed a series of job interviews at hospitals I’m interested in. I’m beginning to have that jittery excited feeling, yet the romanticized expectation has faded. When I got to college, reality quickly replaced everything I’d imagined and Union became my new normal.

It’s scary moving from that comfortable normal to new things. I’m applying for nursing jobs. I’m about to step out of my comfort zone again and move to a new place. Remember my decision about college? It was a hard one for me.

I felt like I had so many options, but I wanted to pick the right one. After I chose Union, I’d spend time wondering “what if I’d chosen a different place?” or “was I supposed to come here?” Those feelings of doubt I first had when coming to Union are beginning to spring up again.

When I began to have doubts about whether I’d made the right choice or not, I was frustrated. I felt like I wasn’t on the path God wanted me on. But now, looking back, I’m so thankful. I’ve connected with people at Union I never would have otherwise. I’ve created beautiful friendships that bring sunshine to my life and I’ve been trained by loving teachers. I praise God for the moment of clarity—the choice I made was right. If I‘d chosen something different, it would have always been in God’s plan.

“May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit.” (Romans 15:13 NIV) I’ve found that trusting God leads to an almost spiritual wave of peace over my life.

It makes decisions easier and lifts the fog of stress and doubt. He’s there to listen through the hardest of times. So whether you’re set on your major or you have doubts, have a job lined up or not, or are just plain confused, know that God’s hope brings peaceful joy which is more long-lasting than anything else I know.

Kasondra Reel is a senior studying nursing.